I was released in 2005. From 2005-2010, while I still had my moments where I struggled, they were getting further and further apart. In 2011, I got married. But in 2013, I was devastated by his infidelity to me. Being overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy and a lack of feeling valued, I chose to walk away from him and my sobriety. And I made the huge mistake of running away from God once again.
I won’t lie, this has been a painful process. I’ve had to go back to remember when these lies were cemented in my heart. I’ve often fought against going back through these painful memories, but with God’s help, my sister Tammy, and Anna, my mind is being renewed, and I am discovering the truth of who I am.
In 2014, I caught a double charge. One state charge for manufacturing and delivery, along with a conspiracy with intent to distribute charge with the feds. What this means is that, once I am done with my state time, they will transfer me to the federal prison to serve my 2nd sentence.
I was sentenced on May 4, 2016. It has not been easy, but the Lord never said it would be easy. What He did say was that I will never be alone. God has set me free from alcohol since 2010, and He set me free from drugs since 2014. He brought me out of a gang and removed me from a life of violence. God has brought back a very spiritual grounded friend, who has shown me unconditional love. My relationship with my entire family is stronger, and closer than ever. And although I’m away for now, there’s no doubt in my children’s minds that I love them with every fiber of my being.
Today, I’m free from anything and anyone who brought destruction into my life. And although I’m locked-up, I’m more free than I’ve ever been.
We don’t always have to be strong, and pretend to be perfect. Today, I sit writing this from a jail cell, thanking the Lord. I’m given another chance and I didn’t die in my sin. God has already written every day of my life in His book. He knew exactly when the setbacks would occur, and the good news is, He has already arranged a comeback.
Before I had the problem, God already had the solution. He is going before me right now, preparing the next chapter of my life.
He’ll do the same for you, if you stay in faith, and keep the right attitude.
God has had His hand over me and my future looks rewarding. I’ve found that when God touches someone who has been living a radically wrong kind of life, the person begins living a radically right kind of life.
Today, I immerse myself in the Bible, do Bible studies, and surround myself with healthy relationships, declaring within, that I will not fail. I will answer the call to spend the rest of my life telling people. If I can overcome, anyone can.
God has a plan.
God’s desire is that you know and depend on his promises… I do.