February 24, 2016
Day 2: GOD IS ENOUGH
Sometimes things have to get worse before they get better. I’ve always heard this and I’ve known it to be true in my life. But the fact of knowing it doesn’t make it any easier when I am living it.
Why is it so easy to give up when times get so tough you don’t think you can bear it? Why is throwing in the towel the first thought and finding a solution the second thought? What if my mind tells me that the only solution is giving up?
These are the thoughts that consume my mind throughout the day. Oh, and the night too.
My heart goes from being burdened with love and heavy for positive change in Blake’s life, to just saying “forget about it” because he makes it so difficult. I feel like it is one thing after another, one day after another, one challenge after another. We think we are taking one step forward and he proves to us that he didn’t care about that step and he takes two or maybe four steps back.
I try to remind myself that we did not ask for this anymore than Blake did. Their father’s death was not something anyone expected or was prepared for. And now we are doing the best that we can with the situation that God has given us.
Pause. Yes God has given us Blake. God has trusted us with this trial in our lives because both Corey and I have lived through way worse struggles than this. And God got us through those struggles and we didn’t just give up when it got tough. So why is this any different?
“If you falter in the day of trouble, how small is your strength.” Proverbs 24:10
That scripture just hit me like a ton of bricks!
Mornings are easier to think positive thoughts and have the desire to make things better. By bed time we have gone through every other option for him. But there really isn’t another option for him. We still want him to succeed even if he doesn’t want it for himself.
So where does this leave us? What encouragement can I give to myself this morning to get me through another day in this household that is falling apart? I have nothing. I am empty of any encouragement. But as I realized very clearly yesterday, GOD IS ENOUGH.
I have nothing. But GOD IS ENOUGH.
I am empty. BUT GOD IS ENOUGH TO FILL ME.
There is no encouraging myself. BUT GOD’S ENCOURAGEMENT IS PERFECT.
Still enough. Always enough.
Now to figure out how to remember this throughout the day.