July 25, 2014
With good changes in life always come changes that are a little harder to make. Good changes are my marriage and starting the rest of my life with an amazing man that God gave to me. Some of the harder changes have been combining our lives into one. We are 30 years old (ok that is an estimate… actually I’m pushing 32 in August) and we have both lived on our own for over 10 years. We are both pretty set in our ways on everything we do. So to combine both our different ways of life and try to blend them into one life has been challenging for sure. I know it will take time and eventually it will be like we never lived without each other but right now it does get a little stressful at times.
Another change that is going to have to take place, not because I want it to, but because it’s just not possible for it to stay the same is my job. I absolutely love my job. Self Opportunity gave me a chance when nobody else would. The last 2 years I have grown into a career as a Recruiter that I love and have been given motivation to finish my degree so I can grow further in my career. But the problem is that I now live an hour and a half each way from work. I’m spending 3 hours on the road each day and it is starting to wear on me.
Right now is not so bad because I wake up and spend about half hour with the Lord then get ready for work. But when I start school back in August, I’m going to wake up earlier to do school for 2 hours then leave for work. Last semester I found myself pushing my Jesus time back because I needed to finish school work. And it wasn’t working for me.
My biggest fear in starting a job search is how to go about telling the employer about the 4 year gap in my resume while I was in prison. That’s going to be the deal breaker in a lot of jobs. People tell me if only you can get in for a face to face interview that you can show them who you are. But I worry that I won’t get past the phone interview. This has been heavy on my heart and I have passed up interviews with companies that have tried to recruit me on LinkedIn because I am nervous and scared of how to approach the subject.
But last night at Bible study I was reminded of a scripture that gave me such great encouragement. Isaiah 43:18-19 says “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
Tears sprang to my eyes and a smile to my face when these verses were read. Who am I to fear anything that the Lord brings into my life. Who am I to doubt the plans that God has for me? He’s doing a new thing in my life. He has continued to do new things over and over and over! How could I ever forget!
So in the next few months, as I consider searching for a new job closer to home, I ask for prayers for wisdom and for smooth interviewing. God will make a way when there seems to be no way!