April 1, 2014
About 2 weeks ago I was questioning God about whether my relationship with Corey was of Him. I had come to the conclusion that I took things into my own hands and started making plans that I wanted, but I wasn’t consulting God or asking for His plans anymore. I pretty much knew I wanted to marry Corey when I met him, but was that of me or of God?
I started getting ahead of myself and God and was making plans on my own. Then I was getting frustrated when my plans weren’t moving fast enough. I felt something unsettling and started to doubt this relationship.
But then I was reminded that I was not in control of this relationship. That I had not been letting God lead us. And at that moment I surrendered it all to God. I got down on my knees that Sunday night and spent time before God asking Him to do as He pleases and show me if this doubt was from Him or the devil. I also asked Him to be very clear if we were in His will and how to change what was not.
I made a decision that night to put my 1st Love back FIRST! I had replaced him temporarily and was looking for my acceptance and love from Corey, and I wasn’t getting what I needed, because only Jesus can give me that kind of love that I was looking for. Man… what a reminder!!
Corey and I hadn’t been living completely right… we slipped up a little. On top of that, I was listening to romance audio books instead of books that would lift me up. So I was a little out of tune with listening for God’s voice. But I knew it was time to get back on track and of course Corey agreed when we talked.
I started with writing my prayers down again and spending time in the mornings in the Word. I had go so wrapped up with school in the mornings that I didn’t feel I had time for both. But come to find out, when I start with Jesus… there ends up being time for both! (I’m actually ahead on school work now.)
On Thursday, March 27th, I opened up my Bible and Nehemiah was marked with an old perfume sample. (Don’t laugh… I used to put the magazine perfume samples throughout my Bible so that when I opened it up to read, it was a “sweet aroma.”) Of course it didn’t smell… it was probably 3 years old, but it did warm my heart and I had a feeling God was going to speak to me.
Sure enough, He did. He told me to “Arise and build.” (Neh. 2:20) And of course my first thought was “it’s time to rise up and start building the Kingdom again… be Kingdom minded… lay aside the distractions of this world and do HIS work.”
Then the next day, the Daily Light said “Arise and begin working, and the Lord be with you.” (1 Chron. 22:16)
I was so excited because these 2 verses came right after I surrendered all back to God. So I knew exactly what he was telling me to do and the encouragement was right on time!
It wasn’t until the next day that these words took on a whole new meaning in my life…
To be cont…