June 21, 2013
It’s 5am. God woke me up this morning at 4am and told me to pray. I didn’t feel like getting out of bed yet so I just laid there and tried to go back to sleep. Of course that didn’t happen, cause when God wakes you up, it’s for a reason and He’s not gonna let you out of it. I knew exactly what He wanted me to pray for and why this burden was so urgent.
Two nights ago I had a dream that I was packing a bag and headed to Sooner Youth Camp to tell my story to the girls forum there. I woke up telling my story in my mind and praying about what I would say. This morning I also woke up praying about this opportunity that I will have to speak to these girls.
Since the moment I was delivered from my addiction, I was having memories of Sooner Youth Camp. I was singing camp songs and I lived in a “camp setting.” And I knew I wanted to go back.
I think also one thing that will always remain deep in my heart is that I was already in my addiction the last year I went to camp. I had only been using a few months and I hid it. I didn’t tell anyone. And I wonder sometimes if I would have, if someone could have pulled me out. I know they could have. But I was too ashamed and I was caught up in partying and thought that was life I wanted for myself. And besides, there was no one that would understand as far as I was concerned. These were all “church people.”
And that just gets me wondering about how many other young kids are in the same place I was. Either just experimenting or already addicted to drugs or alcohol. Kids that can’t go to their parents because they would only feel condemned and dirty. Kids that don’t have a mentor or a close friend who will confront them and pull them the other way. Kids that are looking for their satisfaction in every avenue but Jesus. They need someone who has been there. They need to know they can talk about their addiction and get help before it leads them further into destruction.
Wow God… this burden right now! You know the ones that need Your deliverance. You are watching over them right now as I am praying for them. Bring them to a place to hear Your Word and Your calling over their life! Bring them to their knees in repentance. Shower them with grace and love so that they know their source of freedom comes from You! In Jesus Name Amen!
Headed to Sooner in July to tell my story. It will be the first time to tell my story to a large crowd. I could use lots of prayer over for these girls and for the right words from God so that my story gives Him glory.