January 29, 2013
I did a very bad thing last night. And I am making a confession. I went to Target and got a few things and when I got rang up, it was a few dollars cheaper than I expected. Like $7 cheaper. So I thought maybe the towels I was getting were on sale. Cool I thought… what a blessing.
But when I got home, I checked my receipt and sure enough, she didn’t charge me for the towels. But she overcharged me $2 for one of the other items that was supposed to be a dollar. So I reasoned in my mind that it was even, since I was overcharged. And since I was already home, I didn’t take the time to go back in and pay for the item.
But knowing that I was not being truthful, I asked for forgivness anyway.
And this morning, although I know I am forgiven, God has a little bit to say about this ordeal. First the Daily Light says:
“You are the the God-Who-sees. O Lord, You have searched me and known me, You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thoughts afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. The eyes of the Lord are in every place, keeping watch on the evil and the good. The ways of man are before the Lord, and He ponders all his paths. God knows your hearts. For what is highly esteemed among men is an abomination in the sight of God. The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him. Jesus…knew all men, and had no need that anyone should testify of man, for He knew what was in man. Lord, You know all things; You know that I love You.” (Gen 16:13; Ps. 139:1-4; Prov. 15:3; Prov. 5:21; Luke 16:15; 2 Chron. 16:9; John 2:24-25; John 21:17)
I was like WOAH! FORGIVE ME LORD! Convicted to the core! I have been able to say that I have been truthful and honest in most all my ways and then in one moment, I take a step backward. Luke 16:15 is what really got me. “What is highly esteemed among men is an abomination in the sight of God.” I thought getting something free was something to be esteemed. But that is not the case. I could have been proud if I would have taken it back right then. But I didn’t. And God let me know that HE SEES! Not that I thought any different. But a part of me just pushed that thought to the back of my mind.
And I think that’s how it starts. You think you can get away with something small. Then it escalates into bigger things. And the next thing you know, you are somewhere you don’t want to be and you don’t know how you got there.
After I read the Daily Light… twice… I opened my prayer journal to write down my prayer and the scripture at the bottom of the page is Phil 4:19 “But my God shall supply all your needs according to His glorious riches in Jesus Christ.”
WOW GOD! I know this. And I trust this. So what made me think that a free $7 was worth anything! I am taking the towels back to the store today to pay for them. And I have definitely learned my lesson. I am so thankful that God speaks loud enough for me to hear Him now. There is still bad in me. And I NEED Him to purge it out of me!