March 9, 2013
I know these blogs are kinda old. But I have been catching up on blogs that I saved till I got out of the halfway house! So here is another one that is kinda old news!
I got rear ended about 2 months ago and it totaled my grandma’s car. I was in a rental for about 2 weeks while I was searching for a car. When I didn’t have any luck with the car search I called a friend and he started helping me look. When it came time to take the rental back there was still no car. So my friend put me in one of his cars from his dealership.
So here I am, driving around in a luxury car, fresh out of prison, with no money. I felt a little funny. I felt like I was doing something wrong. Luxury cars to me right now equal my old life. And while it was great having a car to drive, in the back of my mind, I wondered what people were thinking. Who am I, to have this car to drive?
We kept searching for a car and just couldn’t find the right one. And unfortunately all good things come to an end, and the car sold so I had to give it back. Had to make a decision quick, because I needed a car to get to work. And here’s where the humility lesson begins.
My sister’s car was sitting at Shauna’s house with flat tires and no inspection. (Those are just the main issues but I won’t get into that…humility is the lesson right now.) And somehow I found myself saying “Can we just fix Ashley’s car up? I don’t need a car payment right now. Time to humble myself. “
I think I had to look behind myself to see who said that, but I realized that it came out of my mouth so we put her car in the shop and got new tires and an inspection sticker.
I don’t know why it is so hard for me to drive a car that is not to my liking. I should be glad that I have a car at all. And I should be thankful that I don’t have to make a car payment. How amazing is it to not have hardly any bills!?
God truly brings blessings to the humble. But when my pride was rearing its head, I was going to get myself into something that was not from the Lord… like a $200 payment every month.
“The blessing of the Lord makes one rich, And He adds no sorrow to it.” (Proverbs 10:22)