February 26, 2013
“So I turned to the Lord God and pleaded with him in prayer and petition, in fasting.” – Daniel 9:3
The next 3 weeks are huge for me. It is another transition period where I move from one chapter to the next. In 21 days I am officially a free woman! I am no longer a “member” of the Bureau of Prisons!! I am free to make my own choices and not have to report every time I leave my house. What am I saying…? I will be allowed to LEAVE my house!! Home confinement is almost over! And I made it!
This past weekend, a couple came to look at our house that is for sale, and I was sitting in the backyard because I could not leave like you are supposed to do when it is being showed. So I’m just sitting out there, knowing they are going to look outside and I would have to come up with something to say as to why I was just hanging out.
So when they did come outside with their 3 young boys, the boys wanted to stay outside and play. So I told they could stay out there with me. Then I just chuckled and heard the words run through my head “I can’t leave because I’m on house arrest… but you can leave your kids out here with me while you look at the house.” Awkward!
But very soon, that won’t even be an issue. I am leaving this old life behind. It is truly being buried. I feel like something huge is being lifted off my shoulders as these last few weeks come to an end.
So as I close this chapter, I wanted to give God more of myself and sacrifice my body and my mind. I’m starting a Daniel Fast today. I will eat only food that comes from the ground for the next 21 days. I want to start this new chapter being fully aware that my life is nothing without the power of Jesus! I want to never forget that everything in my life is here because His has allowed it to be. I don’t want to put anything between me and Him. Not food, not time, not family. He has to be first in my life. So I am giving up all choice foods as an act of worship and consecration to God. And I am “turning to Him and pleading with Him in prayer and fasting.”
I don’t know what He has in store for me next. But I want to be prayed up for it. And prepared for whatever might be headed my way.