January 27, 2013
I sat down last night to play the piano and I found that I was a little rusty. I forgot that if you don’t practice for a few weeks, it is very noticeable. But as I played and sang, it started to come back to me and I was able to get into worship mode after a few songs.
I’ve also noticed when I don’t spend as much time in the Word as I would like, I don’t hear as clearly from God as I would like. I don’t have much to write about because God’s not giving me His inspiration. I think this is kinda along the same lines as not practicing the piano. When you get out of touch with something, it takes you longer to get back in your groove.
This takes me to my next point. It is so easy to get out of touch with life. I was WAY out of touch with life. First when I was in my addiction for 6 years. I distanced myself from my family, from my friends, from God, and I lost touch with who I was. I had no identity and I didn’t know my reason for living. At that time it was all about drugs, money and partying. I was living, but I was going through the motions, with no purpose. I thought my life was normal and everybody else didn’t know what they were missing. They were the ones who were out of touch and “judging” me for the way I was living.
But when my eye opener came and I found myself behind bars, I saw how much I had been missing in my life. And that I wasn’t being judged, I was being loved. And now I had another 4 years to be out of touch, but by force, not choice. This time, I really got out of practice of living life. My life became a routine of making it one day at a time. Not looking too far into the future, because then it would come slower. Living for each day because in order to not go crazy and not get institutionalized, I had to look for different opportunities that God would send to spice up my routine. My life became the people in that confined space and giving God glory for every moment.
So when it was time to come home, here I was realizing how out of touch with life I was again. But only because I had been living out of the world for so long. I was out of practice and everything felt funny. I didn’t know how to go into a store or put in an application for a job. I didn’t even know how to talk to men. I had been away from them for so long, and I just wanted to avoid all conversation with the opposite sex. Which I did pretty well for a while and all the guys at the halfway house thought I was a snob.
But as I started to get back into the groove of the “real world” as we called it in prison, I have started to find my place again. And once again, all it took was a little practice to remind me how it works.
But prison and addiction are not the only ways one can get out of touch with life and your purpose. There are many things that happen everyday like depression, abuse, over working and even having hatred in your heart. All these things will take your focus off God and onto yourself and your problems. You can lose sight of why you are here and get all wrapped up in your own world of your own making.
With all these things that can take you out of touch with life, you have to really be conscious of the ONE who gives you life. He is the only ONE who can keep your life. He is the ONE who can take your life. So LIVE your life for His glory and never get out of practice of GIVING your life for Him. After all, HE GAVE HIS LIFE FOR YOU!