By Randi Spearman
This is a time of new beginnings. This is the time to start over. It is time for God to make ALL things NEW!
God has done an amazing work in me. He has turned me inside out. He has renewed my heart and mind. He has restored my salvation. He has made me a new creation in Christ. So why do I struggle to hold on to certain things from my past?
Paul says in Philippians 3:13-14, “But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
I’ve had 4 ½ years to prepare myself for the day I would look through all my stuff. And I had this fairy tale hope in my mind that everything was going to be there and I would just pick up where I left off. But that was not realistic. I’ve been gone a long time and we just got rid of a lot of stuff. My first feeling was shock. My next thought was to ask God to help me work through this.
Verse 15 of Philippians says, “All of us who are mature should take such view of things and if at some point you think differently, that too, God will make clear to you. Only let us live up to what we have obtained.”
I’ve had a few years to mature and to take a spiritual view of such things instead of a worldly view. And this weekend I definitely had a worldly view and had to ask God to make this clear to me. And He has made it very clear. I have been made new on the inside. But I have not surrendered completely the things on the outside.
He has been working on this since I got home through different situations. And God is telling me that HE wants to provide for me. He wants me to know that HE is the ONE to build my life. He doesn’t want me to think I did anything on my own. He especially doesn’t want any drug money belongings to be a part of my life. He wants every aspect of my life. He wants every aspect of my life to give Him Glory. He will not give His Glory to another!
“Only let us live up to what we have obtained.” (vs. 16). I have obtained a new outlook on life. Why would I want anything to do with my old life? Do I not trust God with my life? Of course I do. But I can’t just trust Him part way. He wants complete surrender of all I am and all I have. Will I surrender, or will I continue to hold back and not let go of what He’s asking of me?
I surrender all Lord. Help me to not pick it up again. I trust You with all that I am and all that I have. Purge every bit of this world out of my heart, so I can be fully used by You.