By Randi Spearman
So I had a pretty stressful day yesterday. I can’t talk about exactly what I was stressed about. You can ask someone in the family if you want to know. But I totally see how worrying is a sin!
I drove myself crazy with worry to the point that I had a backache on the train ride home. I just wanted to get back to the house and crawl in bed.
I was alone on the train and my worries and fears just spun in circles in my mind. I don’t remember the last time I was this stressed. And I wasn’t doing anything about it…I was just worrying.
When I got off the train to take my walk around downtown before my next train left, I finally started praying. I know…it took me long enough…but I got there! And not even a minute into my prayer, this song came on: “You said don’t worry about your future daughter, just think about the things that matter. So I won’t magnify the small things anymore, I’ll only glorify the Father. Cause You hold me still when the waves around begin to build I’m in Your hand, though sometimes it’s hard to stand. You have my heart and You hold it still.”
Our Lord, so intimate, spoke straight to me, as the waves were beginning to build around me, He reminded me that He calms the storm and I’m in His hand, where I can, “Be Still and know that He is God.”
The worries left immediately. I was able to finish my walk in His peace. Until, of course I got back to the halfway house and my passes for Thanksgiving and the funeral were not there. That’s when I totally saw the devil’s hand in this. He wants us to worry and fear because it takes our mind off of God and on ourselves. So I made some calls, got some prayers going, and the next thing I know, the passes are up front. PRAISE GOD!
All the worrying today was for nothing. Everything turned out fine and I had an amazing day. But I could have done it worry free. I am so covered by His hand right now. How could I not just put my trust in Him?
“He shall cover me with His feathers and under His wings shall I trust! His truth shall be my shield and buckler….He shall give His angels charge over me, to keep me in all my ways.” Psalm 91:4,11