September 11, 2012
Tonight Callie and I were out running on the track and we started dancing to “All The Single Ladies” and it turned into the “8 days left” dance. And I got real excited with it! I was just dancing around all crazy like! Not even caring that there were people all around. I just let loose and had fun with it.
Tonight was a perfect example of how much I have grown. When I got here 20 months ago, you wouldn’t catch me dancing. I was too worried about looking stupid that I would not dance in front of people.
I like to dance – it’s fun. But it hasn’t been something I’ve done since I started using meth. I was so self-conscience and was always worried I looked silly.
But now – I love being silly! I may not be the best dancer — but I sure enjoy it! There’s even some songs that my shoulders get to bouncing as I’m playing the piano! Now that’s fun!
Something as simple as dancing, which was a part of my life before I did drugs, but gave me such a complex throughout my addiction, is now a confidence booster for me. It is because I know who I am now. I am not worried about what others say or think about me.
I am loved by the King. And just as David danced before the lord, I will dance and be glad as well!