July 24, 2012
I got to go on a little vacation from the prison last weekend. I was asked to volunteer out at the county fair a few days a week for the next 3 weeks. And it was so awesome!
We cleaned a few buildings and this coming weekend we will decorate for the craft contest. And when the fair starts we will help receive and set up items that people submit.
The best part about it was just being somewhere different. Working hard because I wanted to, not because I had to. Taking pride in my work. And it felt like I was at a real job. Not just sitting around for my job.
Don’t get my wrong – I think I have the best job at the whole prison. I get to sit in the chapel office doing what I love. But I am a hard worker and I enjoy hard work. And my job is far from hard work.
But God has placed me in my position and I am blessed to be there! And I am doing His work!
But I am also blessed to get to go to the fair. And I am more excited about volunteering when I get home than I was before.
It feels so good to give back to the community. I have lived such a selfish life in the past. If it didn’t benefit me, I wasn’t interested. Even though I always prided myself in having a servant’s heart, it was always for a reason. Not just cause I wanted to give back.
I still find myself sometimes thinking about what I’m gonna get out of this… what can God do for me?
But if I don’t know the answer to that question already, then I am still that selfish person I once was! Cause God does everything for me already! There is nothing more that I need. He has saved me. Delivered me. Changed me. And restored me.
James 3:13-17 says, “Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such wisdom does not come down from heaven, but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.”
That was me – boasting of all my good deeds. But what good were they? I did them for myself, not the Lord.
But now I strive to do everything unto the Lord… for His glory.
Lord, help me to be humble and submissive, full or mercy and good fruit. Your wisdom is pure. Remove any selfish ambition from my heart and fill me with Your wisdom and understanding. In Jesus Name. Amen