August 13, 2012
I was talking to a friend today about trust. Last week a CD was stolen out of the chapel – case and all. A few months ago, a whole stack of worship music disappeared. It really makes you wonder when people will steal from the chapel. But what do you expect? We are a community of thieves, liars, manipulators, deceivers and hustlers. Some of us are reformed, but some of us are still stuck in our old ways. Who can you trust?
Last week when I was at the fair, I was working in the antique area. People were coming to pick up their items. Some things were very valuable. And as they pointed to what was theirs, I started to wonder if I needed to check their ID or if they would try to take something that wasn’t theirs. I asked the lady in charge and she laughed at me. “We’ve never had any problem before, but you can check the name if it makes you feel better.” I didn’t know these people. Who could I trust?
I started wondering today how long I am going to be cautious with people when I get out.
When will I give people the benefit of a doubt instead of expecting the worst? When will I be able to trust that not all people have ulterior motives? When will I be able to let my guard down?
I have been deceived a lot in my life. And I have also been the deceiver. If I can be given a second chance, who am I to withhold mercy from another?
I think being around my family will be the first step in the right direction. And I know I will be surrounded by people who love me and want only good for me. And I will have to use discernment in other situations. Cause it is okay to be cautious. But I can’t be judgmental or accusing. It will come in time. There’s definitely going to be an adjustment period.