August 16, 2012
I’ve known I wanted to do one more deeper fast before I leave. But I hadn’t heard anything from God until this week.
I’m studying Ester and when I read about her fast a few days ago, I felt God telling me it’s time to fast. So I’ve been praying – asking Him what He wants me to do. On Tuesday night I said “Lord, I’m ready. I need your guidance please.”
And last night at Bible study, we studied Daniel. And when she said “Turn to Daniel,” I just smirked cause I heard very clear “I want you to do a Daniel fast.” I’m not sure I even got the whole message of what we studied because I was stuck on how clear He answered me.
When I prayed in my bed last night, I begged Him not to ask for a Daniel fast. It was so hard the last time!
Isn’t it silly how we ask for wisdom and guidance and then when He gives it to us, we beg for it not to be so! I can only imagine what it would be like for Him to give me direction and for my first thought to be “YES LORD!” But I am stubborn and it just takes a little longer for me to accept something I know is going to be difficult.
So this morning, I went to prayer group, still looking for confirmation and Mrs. Locke and I had a few moments alone. Mrs. Locke lives a fasted life as well. She fasts every Thursday with me. And the 2 long fasts I’ve done here, she has been right beside me. So I mentioned it to her that He was leading me to do another Daniel fast.
She said “Oh my gosh. He’s been telling me its time to fast again too. I think He wants to do something before you leave and He needs our help.”
Wow… that was the confirmation I needed. But I was still a little uneasy about a 21-day fruits and vegetables fast. Until I started walking back to the dorm with Brandy and I mentioned it to her and she said she heard the same thing at Bible study last night.
Alrighty then. Let’s do this Lord! So I came back and changed my commissary sheet. I’m not going to waste any time. I’m starting today. What better day to start a fast then a Thursday! My special day with the Lord.
I could really use your prayers the next 3 weeks. It will be difficult . But all things are possible with God! And man does not live by bread alone, but by every Word that proceeds from the mouth of God.