June 21, 2012
Yesterday as I was sitting out at the track, the song “Voice of Truth” came on. I haven’t heard this song in quite a while. I had my eyes closed and I remembered another day that I was listening to this song.
It was on the day I got sentenced to 78 months in prison. I remember sitting at the pink tables in county crying – thinking this was not possible. God was supposed to give me a miracle. There was no way I’d make it 6 1/2 years in prison!
And I remember this song. “But the voice of truth tells me a different story. The voice of truth says do not be afraid. And the voice of truth says, this is for my glory. Of all the voices calling out to me… I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.”
That day, I trusted God. I heard God tell me that I COULD do this time. That all things ARE possible with Him. And that my sentence was for His glory. Although, in my simple mind, I expected Him to get the glory by allowing me to get all these years and then God would miraculously let me go. That’s how I thought He should get the glory.
But 4 years later, I see how much glory God has received right here in prison. It was not His plan to release me early. It was His perfect plan to keep me here.
And the voices of fear and confusion that I heard the day I was sentenced, are nothing compared to the Voice of Truth I hear today.
SO this afternoon, I was listening to a sermon in my office and I was following along with the verses. I just happened to grab my Bible I used in county. And I turned to the verses in Job, and there at the top of the page was “Voice of Truth” with little music notes beside it. (I would draw music notes anytime I was singing the words at the time I wrote them.)
And I remembered hearing the song yesterday and felt this assurance in my heart that I am right where I am supposed to be. 4 years ago, I couldn’t even imagine this day. But God has brought me through.
I am 3 months to the door today. Still listening for His voice. Still seeking the truth. Still trusting God for His perfect will.
“Listen to His voice, and hold fast to Him. For the Lord is your life, and He will give you many years in the land He swore to give you.” (Deut. 30:20)