July 4, 2012
This is my last holiday in prison! Yes! I am trying so hard to keep my mind here.
Yesterday Shauna told me to take advantage of this time cause I will never get to sit around and not be busy ever again. At first I said “PRAISE THE LORD!” to that one!
But really, she’s right. These next 3 months are the end of my training. All the things I’ve learned here – the disciplines, the good habits, the responsibility, the contentment and the love – it’s all practice for the real world.
It’s easy to be good in the bubble I live in now. But soon it’s back to real life. Real problems. Different people. Real responsibilities. Real time (which is very different from prison time.)
And while I am very excited about having a real job and a real schedule – I do wonder if I will have time for the real important things that I love now. Like Bible study and writing. Will I have time to write music or just sit and play the piano for fun? Will I have time to read or write letters? I want to write letters to prisoners cause I know how much it means to get mail and I want that to be part of my ministry. And will I even have the energy to workout?
It’s a lot to think about and while I am very exited about it, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. But I know I will make time for what’s important to me. But for now, I am gonna focus on today. And I’m gonna make the most of my time here and spend it at Jesus feet!