July 19, 2012
Today is my 4 year prison anniversary. And I was just thinking how amazing God is! How loving and gracious He is that He would walk me through this! And He didn’t just walk me. He blessed me throughout the whole journey! He has shown me what it is to live life abundantly! My life is so full right now!
As I write that, I’m like “WOW! That is so weird!” But God’s fullness goes beyond all circumstances. I don’t need anything else. Sure, my family would be nice. Maybe a good job. A new pair of jeans would definitely be nice… actually I’d settle for a used pair of jeans!
But none of that compares to my Jesus! None of that even measures up to the satisfaction I find in Him!
“My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise you with joyful lips. Because you have been my help, therefore in the shadow of your wings I will rejoice. My soul follows hard after you: Your right hand upholds me.” (Psalm 63:5, 7-8)
“My soul follows hard after you.” WOW! I can feel that one! It’s like saying “I love you HARD!” With full force! All that I am. I can see my soul pushing hard to get to Him. Like when I run. I have to push extra hard to make that last stretch and I usually sprint to the finish. And I see my soul like that – it just can’t get to Jesus fast enough!
“O God, You are my God; early will I seek You: my soul thirsts for You, my flesh longs for You in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is.” (Psalm 63:1)
That is here! This is a dry and thirsty land. But Jesus is the Living Water! And that’s what I long for.