May 14, 2012
My heart hurts tonight. Not for myself, but for others.
Picture this. A dog is caged into a dog run. It is running around and around in circles – oblivious to the world around it. Oblivious to the path it is beating into the ground from going the same way over and over again.
But this dog doesn’t have a care in the world. It is content going in circles. It doesn’t care about the huge fields and forest paths it could be exploring, cause all it knows is the circle it is stuck running in.
I was once running in circles and had no drive to change my path. I was in love with a man who didn’t love me back. I would rather to get high by myself than spend Christmas with my family. I was content with not having many friends because I didn’t want the circles I was running in to expand or be broken. I was miserable within myself, yet didn’t want to do anything about it.
I was stuck. Making one bad decision after the next. I was selfish. Only cared about meeting my immediate needs. I had no concern for the future or how I was hurting my family.
And those circles got me no where! Thank God He was watching me run in circles – digging a ditch waist high. And He reached down and “brought me up out of a horrible pit, out of the mire clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.” (Ps. 40:2)
So when I see others running in circles – going nowhere – it hurts my heart. How I wish they would open their eyes to the abundant life God is offering. If only they would stop running and let themselves be caught.