May 5, 2012
There is a concert going on at the college down the street. I think it’s called Agape Fest. They are broadcasting it on the radio. So I’m sitting out on the bleachers – trying to imagine being at the concert right now!
I think about all the musical fests I’ve been to in my life. And the role music has played in my life. I guess I started in high school at Christian music festivals. I remember a 4th of July thing I went to for a few years. It was awesome! But after high school, it turned into raves and techno music. All dressed up in visors and big baggy pants with tube tops. The raves were about drugs and dancing. Then there was Jazz Fest in New Orleans.
Once again – it was about drugs and getting lost in the music. That was one of my first experiences in New Orleans where my love for jazz music was formed. But at that point, I wasn’t dancing. All the meth I was using made me so self conscience and insecure. I wasn’t into dancing anymore.
Then there was Cochella Fest in Palm Springs, California. Techno music and drugs – again! I ended up in the emergency room after overdosing on acid. My music events just getting worse and worse.
When did my love for music turn from Michael W. Smith and worship songs to techno and rap?
I can remember in Jr. High when I wasn’t allowed to listen to certain music and I always said, “I don’t listen to the words – just the beat.” But who was I kidding?
The views of the world slowly seeped into me. Listening to words such as “Every day I’m hustling…” and “Riding dirty… riding spinners… riding something…” The more I glorified the life of crime, the more I wanted that life.
Whoever says that music doesn’t influence us is WRONG! What you put into your ears and eyes is what will come out your heart and mouth.
Praise God my love for Christian music is greater than any of my other options My love for music made a full circle with my life. And each phase of my life was reflected by the music I was into at the time.
I cannot wait to be at Christian music fests. I can imagine being there right now. VERY SOON it will be a reality. GLORY TO GOD!