May 10, 2012
“Faith in Christ guarantees Miracles of Deliverance or Miracles of Endurance.”
While it is in every heart of a prisoner to pray for miracles of deliverance – I am so thankful that God has given me the miracle of endurance instead.
The thing about this prison journey is that the whole time – I have tried to convince God I was ready to go.
I read the whole Bible twice in county… can I go yet? I’ve led Bible studies and sang in the choir… is it time yet? I’ve learned many valuable lessons and completed an intense drug program… Lord – don’t You think I’m ready?
But through each step – as I’ve learned about myself and grown closer to God – He still reminds me that “my times are in His hands.” (Ps. 31:15) And that “His ways are higher than my ways.” (Is. 55:8)
And I am still strengthened more and more – 4 years later. I can not imagine if He had let me out back when I thought I was ready. I probably wouldn’t have made it. I wouldn’t have found that I love to lead worship. I wouldn’t have developed a deeper and more intimate prayer life. I wouldn’t have learned how to recognize my pride and rise above my circumstances.
If God would have answered my prayer to be released early – I would have been incomplete and an unfinished work.
Not that I will ever be completely finished, at least not until the day of Jesus’ return, but God knows all I need to be ready to return back to the outside world.
So praise God for unanswered prayers! Praise God for miracles of endurance! And praise God that He is in complete control. And I can say from my heart that I want to be right where He wants me… even if that is here in prison.