April 19, 2012
So the lesson I thought I learned about being prepared to deal with difficult people… even in the church was the easy lesson. God is working on some deeper things with me though.
When I got back to my room, I read my devotional again and was shocked that I did the very thing the scripture said to do – “stand still.” (Exodus. 14:13) And I didn’t even remember reading it this morning.
I was still very bothered by what happened hours later. I opened up another devotional and the scripture was Matthew 7:3-5. “Why do you see the speck in your neighbors eye, but do not notice the log in your own eye? Or how can you say to your neighbors, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ while the log is in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbor’s’s eye.”
And I was like “YEAH! See… How dare she say that… Look at yourself first!”
But as I thought longer and prayed about this, I began to realize that this lesson is for me. I have judged her for a while now. I have seen her as the hypocrite that doesn’t live as she talks. But who am I to judge her? I have no idea the hardships and struggles she is going through. While I’ve always seen her as the rude one, maybe she sees me as rude also. Maybe it’s because I don’t speak to her and she perceives that as rude.
I don’t know. But I have judged her in my heart and avoided contact with her because of it.
This is a hard lesson to learn because I really have no desire to be friends with her. She tried to intimidate me and spoke down to me and if it was up to me, I would carry on like I was, because I didn’t think I was doing anything wrong.
But God knew there was unsaid animosity between us. And He was not okay with it. So now He’s brought this out, and I have to make an effort to love this woman. Even if I’m never her friend, she is still my sister in Christ. And the Bible says to “judge not, lest you be judged.”
And I think that is the lesson I learned. And I am amazed that God prepared me for this today, and I took His advise, even though I didn’t even know I was doing it.
“Stand still and see the deliverance of the Lord today.”