March 13, 2012
It is beautiful outside today! I just got my intense cardio in with Brandi. We moved our workout outside for the summer! And it’s so fun. We’ve been playing outside for an hour and then I wimped out and grabbed an iced coffee to relax for the next hour.
I will probably end up with a red face – but I gotta get my first sunburn of the year! Then it will turn tan. The thing about getting a tan is that we cannot roll our sleeves up – so I will be stuck with a farmers tan on my arms. But I’m ready to get a tan cause I’m going home when I’m tan.
I’m getting rid of my scarf and gloves and jacket and thermals… I won’t be needing any cold weather clothes cause I’m going home when it’s warm! I’ve been waiting for this season for 4 years! I can remember my first winter in prison. It was the hardest cause I was stuck inside 24 hours a day and I had no idea what was going to happen to me. And I was so far from home.
My 2nd winter was better cause I was in Fort Worth, close to home, and at Carswell there were so many activities to help us get though the holidays. I remember watching the seasons change back to spring. It was the first time in my life I noticed how the seasons changed. The budding of the tress – the birds coming back out to play.
My 3rd winter was stressful cause I was waiting to leave for Illinois, but didn’t know when, so I wasn’t all there. I had one foot out the door.
And this last winter is coming to an end… Yes – let me say it again.. my LAST winter in prison is coming to an end… PRAISE THE LORD! I made it!
On Friday I will be starting my LAST phase of treatment. All these ‘lasts” and I love it!
I am reminded of Ecc. 3:1-2 – “To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up…”
As I was born again, my old self died. And when my old self died, I was able to receive the seeds that were being planted in me. These seeds have been growing and the fruit is maturing. And it is soon time to “pluck up that which is planted” and start planting in another place.
My last season in prison and on to my first season of my new life! I can hardly contain my excitement!