March 19, 2012
I’ve had it on my heart to do another fast. So I was praying about when and what, but God hadn’t led me to do anything. Then on Saturday, I was copying something out of a book I’ve been reading on fasting, and I prayed “Lord, are you gonna tell me when to start this thing?” Then I looked at my watch and realized that Monday (today) is 3/19/2012… one year from my release date in the computer. And I knew right then that I was supposed to start today.
I’m giving up meats, breads, sweets/desserts and movies/TV for 40 days. I’m fasting because I’ve felt this burden to do so for a few weeks. I feel like the 21 day Daniel fast we did got some things moving in the spiritual realm and He isn’t finished yet. I feel there is more revival for this prison.
We were praying for release and paperwork to get moving and now we are hearing rumors of amendments and parole. And I want to put as much prayer as I can into that.
As I go into my last phase of treatment, we start putting everything together and prepare for release and I’m fasting for everything to fall into place when I leave. A job, a car, healthy friends, eventually my own place (but no rush on that one:) But mostly I want to know what my ministry will be.
One thing I am going to do differently this time is not complain. The Bible says to do everything without complaining or arguing. (Phil 2:14)
And sure, its funny to joke about missing out on carrot cake. But really, I am glad to give up these choice foods for His glory. I want to give Him so much more than I have to offer. What good is it to offer a sacrifice by force? I am willing and I feel blessed to deny myself in His honor!
So I appreciate your prayers. And you know I will keep you updated on what God is up to here!