January 31, 2012
As I lay here listening to the alley announcements, my mind wanders and I don’t even feel like I am here. However much I want to stay in the here and now – I just yearn to be somewhere else. I am sometimes bored with my program. I am very often bored with prison. And while I am extremely bored right now while I am stuck in my room, just 2 hours ago, I was rejoicing in the chapel over the work God is doing here in Greenville. How did I go from joy to self-pity in a matter of hours?
It is extremely easy to get in a “mood.” To dwell on what we don’t have and to wish for a place that we can’t be right now.
Where am I going with all this…
I guess what I’m getting at is sometimes, where God wants us in not where we want to be. Sometimes what He has planned for us is not in our plans. Sometimes, what He wants us to do is not what we want to do.
But what makes my heart content is that He knows the end of my story. He knows how long it’s gonna take to refine me. And I know that “He who began a good work in me will carry it on until completion.” (Phil 1:6)
And there will be days of boredom, and days of joy. Days of testing and days of peace. But each day gets me closer to the day I’m looking forward to. The day where this chapter of my life closes and the next one opens.
“Better is the end of a matter than the beginning: and patience is better than pride.” (Ecc. 7:8)