As I read the Captivity Series – I get to thinking about the ministry here. It isn’t what it could be. It should be more exciting. We need a revival – an outpouring of the Holy Spirit! I know my ministry is the music. But I need God’s strength to make it better.
Sometimes I feel like it is my responsibility to make church better. I think that if I’d only pick better music, or if I could lead with the microphone, or if I wouldn’t mess up playing the piano, then worship would be better. I feel like there are changes that need to be made to our service- but I don’t know how to make them. Then I take this problem on as my own and I feel that I am the one that has to fix it. Then – when I can’t, I feel like I am letting the church down.
But God just spoke to me. He said I am too focused on my performance, and not focused on Him. My own good works are nothing if He’s not behind them. So while it is good for me to do my part in the body of Christ, it is not my responsibility to “make church better.” That’s His job! That’s His specialty! But what I can do is pray for our church and listen for His guidance. I don’t think it is a coincidence that my job is to vacuum the gym on Sunday mornings before we have church. It is a set-up! I have an hour to pray over our sanctuary while I work! God sure is good! And it’s so great when He lets us in on bits of His plan! He orchestrates everything! And I am so thankful that He is perfect!
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