9-11

I have been watching the tribute and memorial to 9-11 on TV.  And it breaks my heart to see the videos from that day.  It is devastating to me.  What is even more devastating to me is what I was doing on September 11, 2001.  I remember it vividly.  I lived in an apartment in Carrollton, TX.   I had just go a big screen TV and I was flipping through the channels.  I saw it on almost every channel – but I didn’t want to watch it.  I remember saying, “Nothing good ever happens on the news!  This is why I don’t watch it.  So I don’t have to worry about all the terrible things going on.”  I figured if I didn’t know about it, it didn’t effect me.  And from that day on – I never watched the news.

I was so deep in my addiction that I sown played the most tragic event of my lifetime.  I think I was more worried about gas prices going up than anything else.  We were cooking dope at my house that morning and I remember thinking it was a perfect opportunity to go buy sudafed pills because no one would be paying attention to what I was doing.  And that’s what I did that day.  I bought pills to cook dope and filled my car up with gas.  This is awful!  I was so sick that I took advantage of this tragedy to further my addiction.

Obama read from Psalm 46 today at the memorial service in New York.  “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in times of trouble….”  I think it is amazing that even though there is controversy over prayers in schools and even graduations, that the President of the United States still recognizes that God is our help in our time of trouble.