This week I received a beautiful note from a friend. An apology of sorts that really touched my heart and got me to thinking. I would like to share it with you. —
“I failed my friend. Although I’d love to tell you how I stuck by her as an encouraging presence and practical helper through her darkest days, it simply wouldn’t be true. I didn’t understand your choices. I couldn’t endorse your actions. I struggled with the consequences of what you did, so I left. I didn’t actually go anywhere physically, but I withdrew my availability and my openness. I tucked my heart into a safe, little box and walked away from your situation.
That was over a year and a half ago, but I still have regret and sorrow. I understand if you are cautious and you continue to guard your still hurting heart. I hope that one day our friendship will be fully restored.”
I told you it was beautiful.
Recently I could have been quoted saying, “loyality is one of my biggest faults”. That’s a lie!! The ability to stay is a wonderful attribute. I desperately want to stay.
Stay through conflict.
Stay through struggles.
Stay through discomfort.
Stay through misunderstanding. I read all the things about May Magdalene staying and I want to share it with you.
Mary Magdalene is a beautiful example of a constant heart. Because of her love for Jesus she stayed.
She stayed after He set her free.
She stayed as He traveled.
She stayed through His torture.
She stayed at the cross.
She stayed at His burial.
She stayed to pass on the news of His resurrection.
Sometimes we as people have trouble staying. When a church doesn’t fit our desires, we change churches. When a friend is going through a bad time because of choices we can’t understand, we tend to withdraw. When God does things we can’t understand, we run from Him.(as if that’s possible). It just seems easier and less painful. I guess.
I want to leave sometimes, but I love to stay. I long to learn an abiding love for God, my family, and my friends that extends a grace beyond my own strength–a strength from One who NEVER LEAVES. The One who is teaching me to stay.
Have an Amazing week!!! Stand Firm!!!