Hey you guys it’s been a little while since I’ve written you, but I haven’t been feeling well. But, I’m all better now!!! Something interesting happened tonight that got me to thinking. Scary huh? Me thinking!!! My room got shook down tonight. Prison term I know but it is exactly what it sounds like. An officer comes in and goes through all of your property looking for contraband.(anything you are not suppose to have). Messes all your stuff up and it sort of feels invasive but then again I’m in prison what to expect. But, while I was waiting outside for her to look all around and make sure I’m in check, I got to thinking.
A shake down is kind of like self reflection. Going through my thoughts, actions, and my being looking for stuff that I shouldn’t have. Like unconfessed sin, guilt and shame that I tend to carry around even though it’s been confessed and forgiven, and my two biggest fear and mistrust about my future. So, I decided while the officer was in my room looking for contraband, to search my soul for it too!!! After she left I spent some time on my knees doing business with God and thanking Him that I didn’t have anything I wasn’t suppose to have in my locker and asking Him to remove and forgive the stuff I wasn’t suppose to have in my spirit.
Maybe, we should all shake down every now and then!!!! I love and miss you all soooo much!!! Write me back!!!!
XOXOXO
Shan
Shannon, this is your mom’s long time friend, the one you met in Las Vegas years ago. I just wanted to tell you how moved I am from reading what you’ve written. It took so much to turn yourself in the way you did. God bless you, you will have a bright new beginning when you get out. I am keeping you in my prayers. Stay strong and shake down as often as you need to. Thanks to Randi for creating this site. 🙂
I think I may make you my new hero. Sometimes it takes us being knocked down and at our lowest to know that God has always been there and we are stronger than we thought. I love you and miss you!
Easter
My Dearest Shan.
I’ve loved you for a long time and am so proud of you for making the decisions you have made. I know leaving your family was the hardest thing you have ever done but God had a plan for you and it wasn’t ending your life …it was beginning a new one. You are in my daily prayers along with your mom’s, We love you sweet heart and can’t wait for you to get out and have a wonderful life. Love you Patricia