“Let this old life crumble, let it fade” I haven’t heard this song in a long time. But I have a very vivid memory of it. I heard it the first week I was at West Baton Rouge. I think I wrote my first blog listening to this song. A year and a half ago I only had a glimpse of what letting my old life crumble meant. Back then it meant me getting off drugs, finding God, and meeting some good fiends in jail. But now it means giving my whole life to God… My past, present and future. It means that I have a calling on my life now to be a light for women around me. It meant I no longer living for myself anymore. I live for Christ and He lives in me. And that means I can no longer say the things I used to say, think the thoughts I used to entertain, or do things I used to do. My new life means I have daily communion with my Lord. The most amazing relationship I’ve ever had. Now I see beauty all around me. I look for good in every situation. I smile and laugh until my face hurts. It means I have a place heaven and it means I am blessed in so many ways. It means that when I get out of prison, I know I will have a lot of friends and lot of accountability, cause that’s the beauty of being a Christian. We have this common bond between us and even if you don’t know each other personally Christians are always ready to be supportive and be a needed friend.
The end of the song days, “Have you been standing on your own feet for too long? Are you looking for a place where you belong?” I have found my place and the rest of my life will be spent letting Jesus put the peices back together.