Written December 25, 2009
The devil was trying to interrupt our Christmas play tonight. Before the play, my good friend and I got in a small tiff.
It was stupid actually. She felt left out yesterday because we played cards without her. So, when I asked her if she wanted to play cards tonight, she was still holding a grudge and tried to make me feel bad for not getting her yesterday to play. I never realized just how frustrating the spirit of jealousy is. I recognize it in her because I used to always get jealous and feel left out. I would get my feelings hurt and so – in return – I would try to hurt whoever made me feel that way. I wanted them to feel bad for leaving me out.
Now, I look back and realize that it got me nowhere. It probably only pushed people away.
Love is not jealous.
Of course, we made up right after the program. The Spirit moved and we were both crying. We are so much alike, it is scary. I see myself in a lot of the ways that she acts.
I feel like I have grown up so much in the past year and a half. Things that would have bothered me then don’t bother me now. I don’t get stressed or upset easily. I am learning how to control my feelings. Now, I just need to learn how to control my tongue. Still working on that one.