Isaiah 49:4 “I have labored to no purpose, I have spent my strength in vain and for no other. Yet what is due me is in the Lord’s hand, and my reward is with my God.”
I figured it out last night…I have not doubted God at all since I got sentenced. I know God can do anything. If He wanted to release me He would have. I think it mostly makes me doubt myself. What I did I do wrong? What didn’t I do? What issues do I have that God is still working on? I guess He has 7 years to reveal them to me.
The scripture above is definitely what I have been feeling. I thought I had this huge blessing coming (release), but 71/2 years is no blessing to me. But I heard a song today that said “Sometimes our heartaches are blessings in disguise.” Yes, I know that some how this is a huge blessing. I don’t know what the end of the matter is…But God said: “The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride.” Ecc 7:8
Patience is one of my greatest virtues these days. So I will just wait and see.