Preface: A few weeks ago, I asked Randi to evaluate her life right now. Examine some of the “apparent” bad stuff – and dive in a little deeper to see what “good” is associated with those “bad” things. Here is what she had to say:
1. I am in jail, at the age of 26.
GOOD: If I weren’t in jail, I would still be out on the streets doing and selling drugs. I would be lonely and depressed because of the drugs. That is way worse than how I feel now. I would not have God back in my life. I would still be running around with no purpose. No direction. No hope. No future.
2. I am facing anywhere from 5 to 20 years in prison.
GOOD: No matter how much time that I get – I know that is how long God has put aside for me to get my mind right. To prepare me. To teach me and to grow me. I can serve God just as well in prison as I can in the real world.
3. I am lonely, scared, bored and claustrophobic.
GOOD: Although I am lonely – I can open my Bible anytime and listen to God talk to me. I can pray anytime and talk to Him. Although I am scared, God has told me “Do not worry about tomorrow. For tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matt 6:34) He also says, “Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you the devil will put some of you in prison to test you…be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life.” (Rev 2:10) So -really, I am not that scared. he usually talks me out of that one. Although I am bored – there is stuff to do. I am reading a lot. I am catching up on my sleep. I can write * arts and crafts * and play cards. **I can’t find any good out of being claustrophobic. 🙁 This room is so small and the air circulation is … well….there is none… umm…but on Tuesday’s and Saturdays, we get to go outside. So Tuesdays and Saturdays are better!
4. I have no “Alone-Time.”
GOOD: Although I am not ever physically alone – EVER – I an put my headphones on and block out most of the noise. And K-LOVE usually puts me in my own little world.
5. The food sucks!
GOOD: But – on Wednesdays, we get hot dogs for lunch! And honey buns on commissary…and I have gained 20 POUNDS! Which was much needed considering, I came in here at 105lbs.
6. All I can do is wait.
GOOD: God has given me the gift of patience. Which is something that I NEVER had before. So – while I am waiting , I keep in mind that I am waiting on God. And that makes it easy to do.
“The Lord is slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you – not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.” (2 Peter 3:9)
7. I have lost a lot of my best friends.
GOOD: The friends that I lost were not the ones that were good influences on my spiritual walk. The new friends I have made here ONLY want to help me grow spiritually.
8. I am away from my family.
GOOD: I was away from my family before. But now I talk to them every day! And I know now how much I miss them in my life before! And I can’t wait to get out and be with ya’ll!
9. I have lost a lot of my stuff.
GOOD: I wont be needing any of my stuff in here anyway! Shauna got a lot of new things and I know I will have better “stuff” in Heaven.
Wow – there are a lot of positive things to go along with my tough life! 🙂 And there are probably a lot more. It feels really good to do this. I mean it really just made my day so much better. I wish I would have done this this morning.
I encourage you all to do this today! It is so easy for us to get wrapped up in how life could be so much better and easier. I challenge you to find joy in today! Find joy in right now! Right where God has put you.