Prayers are being answered in my life!
Before I got arrested, I asked God to take certain people out of my life. I knew it was impossible for me to just walk away from my life – so I begged for God to fix it. And although becoming a criminal was not what I had in mind – coming to jail definitely removed me from a life of sin and all the unhealthy relationships I was involved in.
I have finally been able to forgive everyone that has stolen from me and taken advantage of me while I have been here as well. Being unforgiving was only building up anger and bitterness in my heart! And in a place like this – there is no room to be angry!
So, I have decided to let it all go. Up until now, I have been sweating over getting my computer back, and my stuff that never made it from Phoenix — but, I prayed about it….again…and again…and God finally revealed to me that I was to just let it go! Let go! And Let God!!
I had letters written and everything…demanding my stuff be returned to my family! But I ripped them up and threw them away.
And do you know that I haven’t thought about the things that I “used” to have since.
(Although I was browsing through the Sunday paper planning what I am going to have one day when I get out.)
But it will be different because it will be something I have to work for…and save for…Not something that was bought with drug money! And even if I don’t get it in this life – because I know that money will not be falling out of my pockets like it was before – even still – I am ok with it because in Heaven, I will have one of everything – but it will be better than what I had before – better than what I could imagine – it will be a gift that is given to me and will never be taken back! Mine for eternity…there are no Indian givers in heave – that’s for sure!
So, I am finally okay with what was lost. And from now on – there is no looking back.