It has been a month today since the night I got arrested.
Tonight is only the 2nd time that I have been sad about the fact that I have no control over what happens in the free world.
I talked to Shauna today and all my stuff from Phoenix arrived at her house today (including my puppy, Skyler) and we only got to talk for a few minutes because I ran out of minutes on my calling card. But from what she was telling me, I don’t think a lot of my stuff made it from Phoenix. And it really makes me sad when I picture people packing my stuff up for me and they have a “Randi Box” and a “Keep for Myself Box.” Its like they think I’m dead. Like I’m not ever going to get out or something. I know its just stuff – and it was probably bought with “dirty money” – but it was still my stuff.
And it breaks my heart to think about how much I’ve lost by coming to jail. I guess that just comes with the game that I was playing.
“Ill gotten treasures are of no value.” Proverbs 10:2
I know that one day, my treasures in heaven will be far more than anything I acquire here.
“Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourself that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, your heart will be also.”
That’s what I know I have to look forward to. Since I have been doing drugs, I have lost so much. And if you ask me if it was worth it – what do I have to show for any of it?
Oh…let me see….A criminal record!
Which is not exactly what I had in mind.
What matters now is that my puppy is safe with my sister – I hope…hopefully the kids will fall in love with Skyler and Shauna will not leave the gate open again because she would just break their hearts if she took another pet from them! 🙂 JK. I forgive you for letting Ginger run away. But it might be a little different with Skyler – under the circumstances.
The bright side of this is that Shauna has a ton of new shoes. Kip has a new X-box and some new tools. And the kids have a new pet! And I know they will love and spoil him like I did. And I have prayed and prayed and prayed that he will be good and not bite anyone. So – I think he will be!
Oh – I feel so much better!
Although I am sitting in my bed crying right now because I miss my dog so much.
I feel so much better because I know that whats done is done. There’s no changing the past. And there’s no looking back.
There is hope for the future. Whatever it may hold. Thank you all for your prayers and support! They are much needed and trust me – prayers are being answered behind these bars! Everyday. And that is awesome!